Contempt

by Evan Schafer

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1.
Running 04:06
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Where am I trying to go? Forgetting and forgiving the flow I’m running fast yet moving slow Another chance for this all time low Resisting the current state Reciprocate and appreciate Murderous appetite gone too late Conflicts and oppression to speculate Here’s where the box of grief will end I have no money left to spend Garden of Eden in a revolving bend A servicing stamp of the contraband Hello Mother and Father, I’m back to find The rules and the fame to a Columbine Peel back the layers like an orange rind And wishing the world was in a different line Where am I trying to go? Prelude, fugue and capriccio From beginning to bed the line I won’t toe Forgive me for running but moving slow.
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The Dividend 03:39
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Worse than this is how it turns out Crystal sandboxes that nobody knows about Arming myself with the ticking clock The cliffs, the water, the aftershock I live so hardly than I do Reusing thoughts I thought I threw Away it flies, I can’t see you Reviving lives but you can’t say who The dividend Commences the vending machine firestorm Wrecks all that is seen and done Guarding strong from the icy sun Grotesquely turning figured blocks The versions of myself I mock Ghastly fearless skies of gray The spotted roster falls each day The triteness flows like edging parcels The verses stroke like colored pastels The top of fortress from which I fell The dividend contends and sways OH WELL.
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Before the Rain 05:00
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Well you feel so small in the world today But I see your smile Well it comes along with the carnival At the turn of tides Well I once wished that I knew you But the game is up How dare you try to move me From underneath the world Too much, too much, too much, too much Too much, too much, too much to see the day Before the rain Single words from the mouths of slaves That you hear at dawn The curtains drawn like a pencil sketch Of your memories Well I see you in the corner Left to go and die alone Well the day is the thing that you take in stride When your loved ones are gone (Chorus) Once upon a time There lived a world so close to us Once upon a rhyme
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Tall 03:15
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The silence penetrates you Lock and key prevents you Early morning rise to grow and touch The all-to-be, just come and see The wilderness envelops you The fiercest hand that crushes you Late day up-and-at-’em Got swirled hair makeup on the plate Do you know the way to understanding? Do you know the cross to bear on landing? Do you know the furthest mountaintop to climb to? Where and when should I meet you? The righteousness reminds you That nothing holds sacred for long The down and dirty commends you For the gone and soon-to-be, as you will see Don’t remind me It’s somewhere inside me Don’t reside in me You’re still stuck inside of me ‘Cause I’m tall.
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Storm Clouds 03:19
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[Instrumental]
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Deepest Disillusion 03:42
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In the tired, in the restless Unspoken and beautiful Reclining and dangling Freely Illuminations, standing open Refreshing the cavalry, systematic delivery traveling And when it comes to pass The virtuosic melody rising high in you Somewhere along the line And when the song has died I turn away and say “You know you’re strong but can you make yourself believe that it’s true?” Viral message spreading fire Over the gasoline of collapsing autonomy Freely Consummations in the stations I don’t know what you’ve been told but it’s wrong (Chorus) 1 2 3 4 5 I don’t know how to be real.
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Apparition 03:40
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The words combine To light the trail That leads you The test of crime No conscious rhyme Darkness leaves you stranded Apparitions in the woodwork Ticking time bomb in the worthless reverie It doesn’t matter Why does it matter It doesn’t matter much anymore Correct my language When I speak off-tongue But I can’t stand it much anymore Heavens rewind Guitars will cry I am stagnant Stick up for them And count to ten The fucked up world we live in So is it correct to say That there’s a motive under that skin So is it over, can I finally breathe Or do I have to pray “Goodnight Tannenbaum”?
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Contempt 04:23
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So here’s the last goodbye So here’s the words I’ve been trying to say So why do people pretend to exist? Why do they come to me Asking, asking for love? So here’s where we will part our ways The pain inside me reeks of staleness So why do those who lose forget the meaning? Why do they come to me Asking, asking for more? Dunces and kings, overtones Lost on the moon, lost in the hallways I feel regret, contempt, remorse, no more I feel understandably so – gone I’m back in high school once again The lines are blurred from sitting so long Unearthed from dark lives, the homecoming queens Sleeping in many beds but never your own Remember when we used to dream Before those dreams became obscene? Mothers, fathers, brothers, sisters stuck in the seams It was the wildest thing we’d ever seen
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8th Dimension 02:49
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Information cannonball ... In the eighth dimension ... [Spoken] Yes, I’d like to order one large pizza, um, the mozzarella sticks, a side of fries, a large pepsi, and make that to go please. thank you.
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The Day After Time Ended 07:59
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[Instrumental]
11.
Tall (Alternate Take) 03:18
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[SAME AS ALBUM VERSION]
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Before the Rain (Rough Version at West Chester University) 05:11
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[SAME AS ALBUM VERSION]
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Contempt (Rough Take 2, 10-24-2011) 05:02
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[SAME AS ALBUM VERSION]

about

This is the record that I have meant to make for quite some time. To be honest, I’m not entirely sure why it is coming at this particular time in my life or how the inspiration was ever garnered up. For a long while now, I have been immersed in the musically diverse worlds of both contemporary classical music and film scoring. While it has been a positive experience, with much acclaim given to my compositional name during this span of time, I felt I was getting away from what
I used to love doing most – writing songs.

Now, the whole truth about this record is as follows: I wrote not one piece of music nor did I scribble down a single lyric until I felt them both evolving naturally. A process I followed in the past – and an unhealthy one at that – was to basically force myself to create pieces of music which ended up being sub-par to what I knew
I was capable of producing. Here, this process doesn’t exist in a single note. The majority is composed, but are sparks of originality in the sense that I never “sat
down” to write anything. I have also taken the different tactic of writing lyrics that pose more questions instead of statements, and when statements are made, I intentionally made them interpretable in a myriad of ways so as not to offend the listener with a stagnant point of view. It is lyrical maturity that is long overdue.

So don’t approach this work in the typical sense of background noise. It was not created with that mindset, therefore I request that anyone with enough knowledge about the creative process take the time to sit, listen, and understand where I am truly coming from.

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released November 1, 2011

Produced, engineered & mixed by
Evan Schafer

All songs written & composed by
Evan Schafer
String, brass, wind & harp arrangements by
Evan Schafer

Recorded digitally with Logic Pro & MAGIX Software in Pennsylvania.

Recorded from July-October 2011.

Instrumentation:
Piano, acoustic & electric guitars, keyboards, bass, drums & percussion, samples, programming, vox – Evan

©2011 Cherry Blossom Records, Ltd.
All rights reserved. No copying.

Special Thanks to:
My brain, Apple Products (specifically my MacBook Pro and iPod Touch – you guys are my lifesavers), Yamaha, Alesis, Logic Pro, and MAGIX.

Thanks to:
My mother Debra for consistently supporting me, my father Bill for continually being my #1 collaborator, Paula Jones for being a brilliant musician and person alike, PJ DiMuzio for providing me with a continuous flow of creative inspiration, and Nelson Vicens for keeping the humor alive.

Created in “The Bedroom”.

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Evan Schafer Philadelphia, Pennsylvania

My name is Evan Schafer. I am an indie musician with a strong grounding in traditional composition, but the material always has a unique flair. I guarantee not being bored out of your gourd when turning on one of the records. I produce, mix, and engineer everything myself, and have done so since late 2005. ... more

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